tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3257399284971492459.post1433436826551034847..comments2022-04-09T14:42:51.404-04:00Comments on Somewhere in Transition: Weird, sad day and I'm too damn busy to even have time to cry it outJulia Lee Barclay-Mortonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13148106233642560088noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3257399284971492459.post-8694451908932301482012-03-30T12:52:11.243-04:002012-03-30T12:52:11.243-04:00Thanks so much Lesley - of course it's the peo...Thanks so much Lesley - of course it's the people like you who make it possible to walk through this because you remind me that I am not alone. Another friend of mine just called and reminded me that walking through these times, finding the warmth and realizing we are OK without this or that (relationship, job, recognition, etc.) is the truest and best gift. She is right of course. The word she also used was: hard won. Yes.<br /><br />But meanwhile someone abandoning me (or my perception thereof) does poke what I have been begun to refer to as my Achilles' barn door. No small heel that wound. Not concealed in the slightest.<br /><br />So, the walking through this without picking up anything: substance, sex, person, work as addiction, overeating, etc. is the road ahead. And it feels really fucking uncomfortable and vulnerable-making. But as they say "the road gets narrower" and so it does...<br /><br />When I'm with folks like you, though, I can see the outline anyway of this person (me) who can withstand this loss and has done in the past and is Not diminished by it. That's the outline I hope to fill with my full self before I ever even contemplate being in a relationship again...we'll see.Julia Lee Barclay-Mortonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13148106233642560088noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3257399284971492459.post-83560132376291642802012-03-30T11:27:57.109-04:002012-03-30T11:27:57.109-04:00Julia, so sorry about this, and so sad that the en...Julia, so sorry about this, and so sad that the ending is developing in this way. I completely identify with the interpretation of utter worthlessness, I have felt this at the first hints of rejection for as long as I can remember, and not only from ex-lovers but from almost anyone in my life!<br /><br />Sending love, you are not alone xxLesleynoreply@blogger.com