3 invitations to spend Thanksgiving with friends, even though I already made plans to spend the time with my parents, the fact that I have such amazing friends is moving to me. I forgot this about Thanksgiving - it's what people do here - round up the strays (such as myself) and bring 'em in for dinner. That's lovely.
So Nanette, Alyssa and Eva - thanks so much for making me feel like I'm home.
Ugo - rescue kitty - now lets me give him tummy rubs and purrs. He is feeling more and more safe every day, explores little bits more of the house and seems to be basically out of his litter box - except for today when friends came over and he had to retreat.
Having had a massage a couple days ago, the woman was rubbing my shoulder and I wanted to cry and did a little bit but realized that I am not repressing sadness or tears, what I was doing was holding on to my sadness and not allowing happiness.
Just now, rubbing Ugo, I told him: now can be your happy time (I had noticed a little bit of his ear looked as if it had been clipped at some point - perhaps by someone or something and that made me sad and angry). And as I was telling him that, I started telling myself that. Maybe this can be your happy time now, too. Maybe this can be the happy part.
Grateful for my friends who came up to visit today, Christian who brought me tea, Fred and Pamela who brought their amazing baby Evelyn and we all went walking in the gorgeous Inwood forest, which prompted the gasps of admiration and wonder I have grown accustomed to as I bring New Yorkers here one after the other who've never seen this forest and these leaves before.
Autumn is ending, I can see the leaves beginning to thin on the trees, but it's still spectacular in a different way.
We came back here and I made pancakes with Christian's help (gluten free pancakes, doncha know), which felt warm, friendly and nice to do. Evelyn gurgled and waved. We ate pancakes.
Another friend Eileen came up after her Ultimate Frisbee games and we meditated together, which is our interesting friendship ritual - quite calming for us both. Then we ate food from the farmer's market, apple cider, cheese and bread.
What a lovely day...
I did do some work as well, getting some plays formatted for publication...and now I need to get stuff together for teaching tomorrow so will sign off...But want to leave you with one more thing to be grateful for...this quote I ran across from Thoreau:
"Let us spend one day as deliberately as Nature, and not be thrown off the track by every nutshell and mosquito’s wing that falls on the rails."
Oh what a goal, what a goal....g'night.