After a day of stumbling from one thing to the next and receiving even more lovely emails, texts and phone calls, and thank God/dess being fed by my friends Lesley and Ian (or else, as Ian predicted rightly, I would have forgotten to eat), I got home and was able to finally focus on the project I am creating for Artside at Southend-on-sea on Saturday. The title is from graffiti I photographed in Southend (see below) JUST KILL ME NOW!!! - the poetry of Southend-on-Sea.
|the poetry of Southend-on-sea....|
Beginning to look through the video and photos and thinking through how to present it gave me a window of sanity and some relief from the constant pain I've been walking through recently. I only worked on it a bit as it was late at night, but at least it's a start and shows me my creative self is not dead yet.
If you want to come along and see this show (which will be a performance using photos and video I shot in June along with cut-up poetry from found text plus something else I haven't completely figured out yet, but will have something to do with Hazel the artist who showed me around and the conversations we had), it will be at 8pm on Saturday July 16 at Southend-on-sea at the Railway Tavern. For details: Artside 2011 events
I wish I knew more technical things about how to edit photos into iMovie and such, but am sorting it out as best I can. If anyone reading this does know iMovie and feels like giving me a crash course in editing still photos into it, please do get in touch. Usually, I'm the text person and the director, and here I'm the text, visual, performer and director person. Exciting but a little daunting.
However, it all means one good thing: I'm alive, on the planet and still creating. This is the sanity guaranty that Bourgeois means I think - plus the weird clarity when creating something you know will happen and become a piece of art, even if fleeting as in the case of performance. It is generative and it is possible.
I hope to create moments of beauty as old fashioned as that sounds, but as Richard Foreman says finding the beautiful in the gaps of the not beautiful. There is something about attention, focusing it on anything long enough and it changes. I am using some video painting (long still camera shots of fixed areas) along with photos and words. This expands my horizons and my vision. It will be a rough cut most likely but this is where I will focus most of my energy like a laser for the next three days.
So, please come and join me on Saturday if you can and, if you can't, I'll put up some bits and pieces of it here as it evolves. And please wish me luck as I really want and need to tap into this larger flow right now to lift me up. As it's a new combination of media for me, I'd especially love your feedback.
OK, it's very late now so off to bed. Much gratitude to all of you who are holding me now and lifting me up to make this new burst of creativity possible. I love you all very much.